Feeling really disgusting and panicky tonight. One of those nights when I would ordinarily go out walking… But my body won’t let me because of my arthritis flareup. I’m really really REALLY scared and I don’t like this.
It got worse… My roommate came back. She’s been smoking cigars. She smells like him. I feel like I’m about to die… I’m dizzy and shaking and my heart is pounding… I can’t sleep in here. I may spend the night in the shower. I feel like it’s all over me. Can’t deal with this.