I would like to, and I thought of doing that because there is a coffee shop only a block from his building, but he has equipment and stuff I need to look at and that’s all in his apartment.
However since posting my last post mum has offered to go with me, and I said that wouldn’t be really appropriate due to it regarding work-related things, and she says she could stay in the car down the street or hit up the coffee place or something so that she’s nearby and I can call her. Also, she’s going to call me at a certain time to give me an out if I need one. Like a family emergency or something. Her plan is making me feel loads better. It does make me feel a bit pathetic that I’m so scared about this but I suppose based on experience you can never be too careful. She seems to think I have every reason to have some trepidations about this, so that’s reassuring.
I’m incredibly nervous.
I’m not sure if I’ve posted about work before, but I’m working part time as an assistant for a business manager and basically her job is to coordinate things like grants and policies and such for businesses within her jurisdiction (a section of town) and she also does things like plan events, serve on committees, coordinate town projects within her jurisdiction, etc.
The fundraiser I posted pictures of a few days ago was happening at an event that was coordinated by my boss (like, the event was going on, and mum’s committee was able to get a table there for our fundraiser). So I was in-betweening, partly helping the fundraiser with mum and partly assisting my boss with her stuff.
There was a man there who is basically an entertainment coordinator for events. He’s sort of a freelancer so it’s a bit hard to describe his job but he provides entertainment for events ranging from private parties to huge things. For instance if you’re having a big party or something and you have a theme for it, he’ll provide actors/impersonators, costumes, things like that.
He has a huge event coming up at the stadium that’s going to have anywhere from 15,000-20,000 people in attendance, which means he needs an assistant to coordinate all the stuff for it. As my boss’s assistant and with my boss’s job being what it is, she sometimes hires me out to help with things for particular businesses within her jurisdiction, so I wasn’t surprised when she hired me out to be his assistant for this upcoming event at the stadium. The event is tomorrow, and for the past week he and I have been exchanging phone calls, emails, etc. Today, he wants me to meet him at his apartment to coordinate the final details, work out an exact timeline, etc.
I am scared shitless.
He’s a nice guy. Like, he’s SUCH a nice guy. His name is Steve and he has a cat and I adore him.
I’m still scared shitless.
I keep trying to tell myself that this is just PTSD being dumb and me being overly paranoid about being in a new place and meeting with him alone in his apartment and I need to stop worrying so much, but that’s exactly what I told myself last year when I had a funny feeling about going off campus with my friend. Look how that turned out.
I had nightmares last night in anticipation of meeting with this guy today and when I woke up I was so pale and shaky mum almost made me call and tell him I’m too sick to work.
Stupid. Stupid stupid stupid, Liv. Stop being so afraid.
I’m not sure if this warrants an “I’m sorry” or a “You’re welcome.”
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Aww, thank you! I’ll be sure to post more pics of him :) Lord knows I take loads of them haha. Also any time I post pics of him I tag them as “cedric” so if you go to my blog /tagged/cedric there should be more pics!
Yesterday at Pride in Chicago.
the cop smiling at him though haha